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No motivation [22 Apr 2010|02:35pm]
[ mood | sore ]

I know I should be doing..something, but I feel like this baby is trying to crawl out of my belly button
and I am super tired, I have NO motivation. I do have to go to target to get more thank you cards and start that process, but I just can't seem to do it..I have read a bunch of books...but that is about I get before I seem to drag out

Having a few people over to watch new moon which should be fun..

I know I still have like 2-3 weeks of this baby draggy feeling, before she even thinks about coming out..and I am just so over it..

I want to be able to walk normally at some point

I am sure everything will go smoothly but i am just tired of waiting and being sore..


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A little TMI..the roid rag [13 Mar 2010|09:26pm]
[ mood | ouch ]

Thanks to being pregnant I have one hemroid that is trying to kill me, today for the first time it is really bothering me, I am now sitting on afor wipe on my butt 15 mins to repeat as needed..it hurts..alot...

with that said today is a good day, added some stuff to the baby registry cause people were complaining it was too short, of course i didn't see people buying anything so i have no idea what the hell, so we added a bunch of stuff, i have a shower saturday up in maine, then another one in the following week..in CT, hopefully we will get the big stuff...

and hopefully we will get a glider from Craig's mom cause my back is killing me and I want to rock my Niblet to sleep.
still house searching goes on...I have calmed down from my last post about it, but still alittle peeved

Today was Craig's bday so we went to Alice in Wonderland and eat mexican..which I am sure I will regret

now I am sitting back watching Supernanny and sleeping with roid cream..you know you want to be me right now...

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u know? [14 Jun 2009|06:46pm]
[ mood | disgusted ]

people just fucking suck sometimes. and it just makes me wonder is it worth it to be a nice person?
No one has done anything specific to me lately
but i think about all the times I have been hurt , left out, left behind, dumped, cheated on, taken for granted,betrayed,lied to, talked about on the internet, taking off someone's face book...blah blah blah

and sometimes it is just hard to keep going ya know???

I am just trying to do my thing and keep my head held high...

but would it kill people to be nice to one another??? to be a good friend???

i will get off my soapbox now...

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Crap [01 Jun 2008|06:23pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]

I was supposed to go to a bridal shower today, I had it in my calendar for next week. My friend called and I feel like shit...and my phone died so I couldn't even call him back...

sigh.....and he is not the type of person to forget these kinds of mistakes.
I had their gift already to go too...

great it is going to take me a little while to get out this one


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scratchs head [22 May 2007|04:30pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Jessica Simpson and John Mayer...just can't see it..
he writes his own music, she seems like she can't barely read...

it does make for some good gossip reading..

Nick Lachey is a guilty pleasure of mine...along with Justin Timberlake

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The skinny [18 May 2007|02:43pm]
Nudity/Body Awareness
aka "How comfortable are you in your skin, or with others?"

Have you ever gone skinny-dipping?- yes I have it is an awesome experience

When you're home alone, do you strip down to get comfortable? Do you ever go out without underwear (bra and/or panties) because it's more comfortable?, yep my apt gets stuffy, and I like to wear as little as possibel..

Have you ever/Do you use the bathroom with the door open? Are you comfortable using public facilities? yes i have, and yes i am compfortable

When getting intimate with your significant other, lights on or off? both , either, or candles...

How comfortable are you with body exposure/nudity of others? Group shower rooms?, topless/nude beaches?, breastfeeding in public? yes yes and yes

i think people cover up too much, thought you should always be careful about the private part being exposed to the sun...

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Some funny [02 May 2007|01:43pm]
[ mood | amused ]

Retirement Planning
> >
> > If you had purchased $1000.00 of Nortel stock one year ago, it would Now
> > be worth $49.00.
> >
> > With Enron, you would have had $16.50 left of the original $1000.00.
> >
> > With WorldCom, you would have had less than $5.00 left.
> >
> > If you had purchased $1000 of Delta Air Lines stock you would have
> > $49.00 left.
> >
> > But, if you had purchased $1,000.00 worth of beer one year ago, drank
> > All the beer, then turned in the cans for the aluminum recycling REFUND,
> > You would have had $ 214.00.
> >
> > Based on the above, the best current investment advice is to drink
> > heavily and recycle.
> >
> > It's called the 401-Keg Plan.

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what the hell is that!!! [19 Apr 2007|04:48pm]
The SUN!!
holy shit
my eyes my eyes!

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new office [02 Apr 2007|11:35am]
The new office is really nice, my desk is really cool
but i am far away from everyone I woke with and I really don't know how that is going to be
i need a wrist rest for my key board
i am going to help others

everyone have a great day

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[21 Mar 2007|09:58am]
[ mood | cold ]



1. Yourself: rollarcoster
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend (spouse): awesome
3. Your hair: damaged
4. Your mother: nuts
5. Your Father: broken
6. Your Favorite Item: ipod
7. Your dream last night: sad
8. Your Favorite drink: lattes
9. Your Dream Car: protective
10. The room you are in:work
11. Your Ex: disappointing
12. Your fear: loneliness
13. What you want to be in 10 years? married
14. Who you hung out with last night? roommate
15. What You're Not? calm
16. Muffins: poppyseed
17. One of Your Wish List Items: ring
18. Time: ticking
19. The Last Thing You Did: eat
20. What You Are Wearing: clothes
21. Your Favorite Weather: hot
22. Your Favorite Book: many
23. The Last Thing You Ate: oatmeal
24. Your Life: turned around
25. Your Mood: anxious
26. Your best friend: silly
27. What are you thinking about right now?: craig
28. Your car: broken
29. What are you doing at the moment?: work
30. Your summer: amazing
31. Your relationship status: adored
32. What is on your TV?: l&O
33. What is the weather like?: freezing
34. When is the last time you laughed?: last night

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home early [16 Mar 2007|11:14am]
They are most likely letting us out early

woo hoo!!!

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woo hoo! [08 Mar 2007|04:40pm]
might get to see my honey tonight!!!

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Jokes [27 Feb 2007|03:04pm]
*Fourth Place :*

A man bumps into a woman in a hotel lobby and as he does, his elbow goes
into her breast. They are both quite startled.The man turns to her and says, "Ma'am, if your heart is as soft as your breast, I know you'll forgive me."
She replies, "If your penis is as hard as your elbow, I'm in Room 221."

* Third Place:*

One night, as a couple lays down for bed, the husband starts rubbing his
wife's arm. The wife turns over and says "I'm sorry honey, I've got a
gynecologist appointment tomorrow and I want to stay fresh."
The husband, rejected, turns over. A few minutes later, he rolls back over and taps his wife again. "Do you have a dentist appointment tomorrow too?"

* Runner-Up*
Bill worked in a pickle factory. He had been employed there for a number
of years when he came home one day to confess to his wife that he had a
terrible compulsion. He had an urge to stick his penis into the pickle
slicer. His wife suggested that he should see sex therapist to talk
about it, but Bill said he would be too embarrassed. He vowed to overcome
the compulsion on his own. One day a few weeks later, Bill came home and
his wife could see at once that something was seriously wrong.
What's wrong, Bill?" she asked. "Do youremember that I told you how I had this tremendous urge to put my penis into the pickle slicer?"
Oh,Bill, you didn't" she exclaimed. Yes, I did." he replied.My God, Bill, what happened?" "I got fired.""No, Bill. I mean, what happened with the
pickle slicer?" "Oh...she got fired too."

* Winner:*

A couple had been married for 50 years. They

were sitting at the breakfast

table one morning when the wife says, "Just

think, fifty years ago we were

sitting here at this breakfast table together."

"I know," the old man said. "We were probably

sitting here naked as a jaybird fifty years ago."

"Well," Granny snickered "Let's relive some

old times."

Where upon, the two stripped to the buff and

sat down at the table.

"You know, honey," the little old lady

breathlessly replied,

"My nipples are as hot for you today as they

were fifty years ago."

"I wouldn't be surprised," replied Gramps.

"One's in your coffee and the

other is in your oatmeal

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Great Article [22 Feb 2007|11:22am]
This is who I use to date...not anymore

Dating a drama king
By Dalma Heyn
When Kim found out that Peter, her boyfriend of six months, was sleeping with another woman, she threw up. When she finally pulled herself together long enough to confront him, he looked at her quizzically, like her dog did when she gently pushed him off her pillow. He didn’t understand. “Like, did we ever promise we’d be faithful?” he asked. No, they’d never shaken on it, but their involvement had led her to assume an exclusivity that she now saw was one-sided. Hurled into a country song about a good-hearted woman in love with a good-time man, Kim realized that she’d opened herself up to someone who lacked a heart. She ushered him out of her home by saying, “You’re right. You never promised you’d be faithful. Now, let’s end this, OK?” With that same baffled-puppy look she once found endearing, he played dumb a second time. “But why?”

A New Kind of Guy
Peter is a Drama King. Drama Kings are perfectly attractive, often successful men who look like other guys — guys who want real relationships — but who routinely screw up relationships by being ambivalent (“I’m just not ready for a real relationship!”), hostile (“Why are you trying to put labels on us?!”), or passive (“I don’t like to plan ahead”). Unlike Drama Queens, who merely thrive on chaos and hysteria, these men cause chaos and hysteria, then walk away without a second thought.

I’ve had an ongoing dialogue with women since before my first book on women and sexual silence. In the past few years, I’ve begun hearing something new: High-achieving, strong women of all ages going out with men who seemed to want a relationship but who then… weren’t there. These disappointing men seemed to love their girlfriends’ strength, but then undermine it; to love their sexuality, but then shrink from it; to want a relationship, but then sabotage it. What was going on?

Drama Kings appear to be suitors, but they aren’t: Their issues with intimacy and attachment are so complicated, their ideas about commitment so mangled, that they cannot help but drain you dry, leaving you to sadly wonder how other people manage to find love. They’re throwbacks to a time when the world (and women) revolved around men’s needs—they are one-man shows who can’t share center stage with anyone. There are different types, but what Drama Kings have in common is that they will leave you feeling rejected and confused.

Types of Drama Kings
Peter is of the feeling-impaired variety of Drama King: Nothing emotional moves him. Another kind of Drama King I call The Visitor. The Visitor is only a guest in a relationship, no matter how long it goes on. He likes to check in and out at whim. He calls at the last minute; he never makes plans; he figures every other Tuesday or Wednesday is enough contact.

Hal, for example, viewed Jessica’s place as a bed and breakfast where he was welcome at any time and on however short notice. “Hey,” he’d say on a Friday afternoon, having not spoken to her for a week. “Whatcha up to? Shall I come over? We’ll have a bite and then maybe a movie? Or whatever?” His spontaneity was adorable for about two weeks. After a month, the exhaustion set in. Jessica began to get grumpy. “What man above age 17 acts as if every evening were a potential hookup? I’m 30. What about a real date?” But Visitors resent the commitment and effort required to really date. Jessica said, “Hal, when you want to go out for real, give me a call more than two days before you want to see me.” She never heard from him again. But her exhaustion went away.

Dethroning the Drama Kings
So how do you avoid a Drama King? It’s not a question of recognizing him from afar—evaluating a man always takes a little time, and a Drama King doesn’t look like he’s threatened by closeness or seem like someone who will vanish. But a Drama King may give immediate clues by stating up front that he doesn’t, say, like talking on the phone or want to get married again—even though you’re an optimistic dater, you must accept that he’s handing you the facts, not a challenge.

The key to identifying a Drama King is exhaustion. After a few encounters, you’ll have an overwhelming feeling of being, well, zapped. You’ll wonder, “Isn’t a relationship supposed to be fun—not a constant struggle to just see one another?” Yes.

Drama Kings can only damage you if you let them stick around and keep you in a holding pattern of unfulfillment. Many women make excuses for their Drama Kings or tell themselves they’re being needy when all they want is a little respect. It’s up to you to stay as strong as you know you are. It’s that old lesson of remembering a bad pattern, or a bad feeling, so that you don’t repeat it. So when you’re with someone who makes you feel as if you’re chasing your tail whenever you try to have a discussion, realize, A-ha—Drama King! and move on. Find another adorable guy who energizes you, longs to get closer to you, and doesn’t freak out when he does. He’s out there, and you don’t deserve anything less—no matter what the Drama Kings tell you.

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answer if you like [08 Feb 2007|03:01pm]
[ mood | creative ]

1. Ever punch someone in the face?
2. How old are you?
3. Are you single or taken?
4. Eat with your hands or utensils?
5. Do you dream at night?
6. Ever seen a corpse?
7. Have you ever wished someone dead?
8. Do You Like Bush, the president?
9. What’s your philosophy on life? and death?
10. If you could do anything with me, and have no one know about it, what would it be?
11. Do you trust the police?
12. Do you like country music?
13. What is your fondest memory of me?
14. If you could change anything about yourself would you?
15. Would you date me?
16. What do you wear to sleep?
17. Have you ever peed in a pool? while you were still in it?
18. Would you hide evidence for me if I asked you to?
19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
20. What is your favorite thing about me?
21. Do you think I'm attractive?
22. What's your favorite color?
23. If you could bring back anyone that has passed, who would it be?
24. Tell me one interesting/odd fact about you?
25. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

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hehe so true [06 Feb 2007|08:19am]
New Workplace Vocabulary Words.

Blamestorming: sitting around discussing why a project failed and who is responsible.

Seagull Manager: a boss who flies in, makes noise, craps on everything and then leaves.

Assmosis: the process of absorbing success and advancement by kissing up.

Salmon Day: spending the day swimming upstream, only to get screwed and die in the end.

Cube Farm: An office filled with cubicles.

Prairie Dogging: When someone does something in a cube farm that causes heads to pop up.

Crop Dusting: surreptitiously passing gas while walking through a cube farm.

Mouse Potato: The wired generation's answer to the couch potato.

Stress Puppy: A person who thrives on being stressed out and whiny.

Percussive Maintenance: Whacking an electronic device to get it working.

404: Someone who's clueless (from the error message "404 Not Found").

Ohnosecond: The fraction of time in which you realize you shouldn't have hit send.

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potty time [01 Feb 2007|02:38pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

I have to potty so bad, but I can't go because I have to cover the phone for the girl that is out..
I have an hour left before someone else takes over
I know as soon as I try to leave and go that, phone will ring and it will be important..

my stomach is making odd noises...this can not be good..

i miss ...everyone..i already said that...but i do.. I am lonely..

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boredom [22 Jan 2007|04:30pm]
[ mood | bored ]

A - AVAILABLE: Nope..very taken
B - BIRTHDAY: 05/24/76
C - CRUSHING: I am dating my crush
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: sex on the beach
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: many i have very unjudgemental friends
F - FAVORITE BANDS: too many
H - HOME TOWN: orange
I - INSTRUMENT(s): skin flute
J - JUGGLE: men.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: many but just did a 16 round trip to canada
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: LOLO..not going there..
O - ONE WISH: to have a lasting relationship, get married and make babies..
Q - QUIET?: never
S- SONG YOU LAST HEARD: sexy back by JT
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6:00am
V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: canned peas
W - WORST HABIT: spending money
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD:thyroid, foot, teeth..

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why-sorry cryptic [15 Jan 2007|01:59pm]
why is it so hard to get someone else to understand, anything..anything at all..
somewhere a long the way, communication just breaks down...
I always take things too personal...it is their problem...

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moving day [05 Jan 2007|11:00am]
I am packing up right now, I am I feel like I am not getting any accomplished, I swear I move something and something else gets in the way, I realize that I am not going to be able to take alot, but right now it is the bare bones...

well heres to finally being an adult.

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